How do I cope while I wait for him to approach me?

I am in love with a man who is 34 years old. I am 27 years old. Me and him attend the same church. He commented on a song I wrote online, so I messaged him online. One day, I was online, and I sent him a message. I said, " :)my daughter is sleeping". The next day, he ignored my message and didn't talk to me anymore. I found out he thought I wanted more from him. I assumed that people were gossiping about me and telling him to not talk to me. That wasn't true at all. He was just freaked out because I told him, "I care about you". I told him, if people are gossiping about me, don't listen to them. So we didn't talk for a while. Then, I messaged him 2 weeks after the issue. I heard that his back was hurting. I told him that I am praying for him, and he is in my prayers. I told him that I felt really bad what happened between us, and I told him that all is forgiven. I told him I respect him. He never wrote me back. He was avoiding me for a little at church. Then, he started to look at me more at church. He acts like he wants to talk to me by his body language, but it's like he is scared to talk to me or nervous. One Sunday, the pastor was talking about not being afraid of relationships, and he said, "I am not afraid of that anymore". He will stare at me all the time, act like he wants to talk to me, but will hesitate to approach me. He knows I am going through a divorce. I wrote him a message to him and made it clear that I just want to be friends with him. I told him that I am going through a divorce and it wouldn't be right to get involved with someone right now. Why is he freaking out so much around me? I pray every day and read my bible. I am trying very hard to grow in Christ, but this one thing is bothering me. I wrote him back again a while back and told him that the reason I don't talk to him at church much is because I respect him as a person, and I respect his walk with God being the main focus in his life. Then, that Friday, he came to church and was staring at me. The guy I like went to the alter and sat on the floor, and I was sitting in the first row, so he was sitting close near me. He looked in my eyes when I was listening to the Pastor. It was like the guy I like was looking into my soul. The guy I like left service early when the pastor was talking to me. Do you think he is in love with me? He used to be involved in church, and he quit being involved in activities in the church he used to do. He has not been at church for 2 weeks. I did not talk to him for 2 weeks online. Then, I chose to wish him a Happy Father’s Day. I talked to someone about what I am going through, and she prayed for me about the situation. Then, 4 days ago, I wrote him a message online. He usually never responds to my messages. He didn't respond to me for 2 months when I would write him online. 4 days ago, he responded to a message I wrote him online. I said to him, "Happy Father's Day". He said, "Thank you Christina". I said, "You are welcome. I hope everything is going okay for you. The Father's Day message at church was really good". He did not respond to the last message I sent him. Men, can you tell me what you think this man is feeling? Women, what would you do in my shoes?